Well, I told Jeff about it. He just shrugged and looked at me like, "What do you want me to say?" I was hoping he'd at least be excited or the least bit interested. I have harped heavier and heavier about our lack of a vacation or honeymoon in our 10 years of marriage. This is a good opportunity, which he seems not at all interested in. He has alluded to the possibility of a vacation before. But, when? If I leave it up to him, we won't be able to have a vacation until we're retired, if at all.

Speaking of retirement, I have my state government pension package, plus a 401k deal. He has nothing. Am I supposed to support him in our old age? Or, he'll be working as a mechanic until he blinds himself or can't work anymore. I should explain that. He just had a piece of steel removed from his eye. If came from the underside of a car he was working on. Hello? Safety glasses!

I must be getting PMS. I get on bitching sprees when that happens. Let's see, what else can I bitch about?

Anyway, back to the vacation. I think I may purchase it and go with someone else if Jeff continues to have this attitude. This is too good a deal. My brother knows I need a vacation, and is trying to help. But, who else would I take? Leigh is the only other person I would want to vacation with, and she more than likely wouldn't be able to do it. This is pissing me off.

But, what can I do? It will do me no good to pitch a fit and be a bitch. All I did when he shrugged was ask if it was something he thought he'd be interested in. He shrugged again and said he didn't know. I just looked extremely disappointed and said, "Oh. OK." I then looked at the floor and walked away. I could hear him sighing as I did. He knows this is something I really want, and have wanted for a long time. Oh, well. Maybe it's best. He couldn't do without certain, uh, chemical dependencies for the duration of a vacation.

On a better note, Leigh is coming over after we get back from my bosses wedding (NOTE: the fact that Jeff is going with me is a minor miracle) to decide on and book a hotel for our Charleston trip in March. I'm excited. I know just enough about the city to intrigue her and want to see more of it myself. We will have a blast, I'm sure of it.